To be alone or to feel lonely?

What is worst to be alone or to feel lonely?

Can you answer that question before going on reading?

I have realized that is much worst the latter. This week I’m alone in a strange city, where people speak a strange language for me. I don’t know anybody. I’m completely alone.

And before coming I thought I couldn’t stand it, that it would be so hard to be alone in the room of the hotel. That a whole week is a lot of time to be alone.

But now that I’m here I realize that is not that bad, as long as you know which your situation is. I mean, I’m here alone, and I know it, so I try to make the most of it.

What was really awful, painful, was last week when I was surrounded by people, and I felt no one cared about me. When I went out with my friends and I felt completely lonely and out of place.

They made me feel absolutely miserable, and I thought I must have stayed at home, because when you feel alone is better to be how you feel.

I hope these days alone would help me get over the loneliness I feel when I’m with people, isn’t it ironic?

Do you still would answer the same to the first question?

Welcome to my life

I can say that my story with this song was a "first sight love" I can remember the first time I heard it, I was at home and it was being played in the radio.

I got caught by it… and the more I listen at it the more I feel identified with the lyrics. I feel as if each word is talking about me and describing how I felt in different occasions during my life.

Here is the song:


And the lyrics:

"Welcome To My Life"

Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you
Do you ever wanna run away?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more?
Before your life is over
Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With their big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside you're bleeding

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

No one ever lied straight to your face
And no one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy but I'm not gonna be okay
Everybody always gave you what you wanted
You never had to work it was always there
You don't know what it's like, what it's like

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like (what it's like)

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

But I couldn't live near you, cause I would always want to kiss you

You said these words to me today.

Everything seems a dream by now or a nice romantic movie I watched a year ago. It makes me smile when I think of you, but I miss that ache in the stomach that I felt when I was missing you.

And when you say this kind of things it makes me realise that you really felt something towards me. I loved you, I gave you everything in 4 months because I knew we had few time.

But I was always aware that our story had not future, and what is more, that it was because of this that it was so beautiful.

I'm sure that our relationship would have been a disaster in a normal environment. That I could not have lived with somebody like you for a long time.

But sometimes I still miss you... the way you made me smile and forget all my worries...

I think I coudn't life near you neither, because I would always want to kiss you and to be between your arms too.

It would be nice to be yours for some days again, and to feel you mine... I'll never give up this dream.

Forever I will dream to be between your arms...

Sick of everything around me...

Finally I think I found the words to say how I feel... I feel sick of my job, sick of my friends, sick of my life...

I don't know why I feel like this...
Because the job I started two months ago with a lot of expectatives is deceiving me?
Because the friends I trust more are not here when I need them?
Because everybody seems to be thinking with what they have between they legs instead that with their brain?

Why I don't find any thing to wake up every morning?

Well not nothing there is my babe, he si near me, but I feel is not enough... I don't wanna depend just on him...

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